Samuel Keith went home to be with Jesus during the early morning hours of May 29th.  We later gave birth and met him at 8:19pm and tearfully said 'goodbye'.  He was beautiful at seventeen weeks gestation.  He was tiny, 6 oz., yet had fingernails and every other feature that we have as living, walking beings.  

 

Life does not start when science gives it the go ahead.  Only One can begin life.  If we had done what the doctors has advised, we would have induced labor and ultimately killed Samuel, as he continued to have a strong heartbeat even after my water broke on May 18th.  God gave us eleven more days with him.  Eleven!  Eleven beautiful days that I would not trade for anything!  Eleven precious days that would have been thrown away had we listened to science and humans.  Days given to reading Samuel stories about Jesus, singing to him, calling him by name, feeling a couple tiny kicks and welcoming the community in to know him.  Doctors cannot give us that, did not want to give us that, but God did.

 

We are now back home, trying to heal and once again my body is ready to feed and nourish a baby that is not with us.  I am in physical pain from my calves to the top of my head and down to my fingertips.  Our hearts are broken, again, and we are struggling with what all of this means and what our purpose is in this life.